my dear husband james i miss you so much another new year eve and new year coming without you. . we used to celebrate it but now i dont look forward anymore dear at all as its another year longer i wish i could go back in time instead.iv stoped going to the rbl lost all intrest in the dog racing dont eat probley dont want to see anyone or do anythink anymore. i just want to be with you when at work i cry all the time at home as well i just cant stop thinking about you. i miss you so much its so lonley. if i did not have the dogs i would of walked away from home as its not a home anymore without you. i wish i could go to sleep and not wake then i would be with you. its my fualt that i could not save you.i might be able to pay the bills but i would rather be poor and have you instead i hate my life now. it was 3 yeas ago today that we were told the news that you had cancer on your dads bithday as well. i miss you so much im so sad iv even been told i am boredline depressed and complicated grif i will never let you go dear and now i dont want to talk to doctors or anyone what the point as it wont bring you back. i love dear james xx

IM missing so much i just wish i was with y ou dear. i will alway cherish the things we did. i just want to say happy xmas dear i love you. rest in peace you are with jesus now. love you dear james. xx

Happy birthday dear I miss you so much. I love you and will always cherish the things we did together rip dear we will meet again i love you❤️